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A week or so back I was texting taken guy. He started paying me out about a guy that I was with who was a big mistake.

I have told him before that it was a topic that I didn't find amusing and that it was well "off limits". Apparently he didn't take much notice. So he was paying me out about it and I was getting angry and upset which I told him. He didn't think anything of it thought and continued on with it till I stoped replying. The next day he text me something like "hey grumpy bum" I was still upset about the night before and I wasn't in the mood to talk to him at the time which is pretty much what I told him.

That night I couldn't sleep, it just felt wrong the way I left things. It was 4am and this guy’s phone is always on silent. I thought that if I sent him a text that it wouldn't wake him up and that he would just get it in the morning. Apparently I was wrong. Not long after I got a text back. I’m thinking to myself "shit, shit, shit, omg, why did you do that you are a crazy person" (yes talking to myself in the third person, very healthy)

Well things didn't get better from there.

"Its 4am who texts someone at 4am" apparently a crazy person like me

"My phones always on you know that, of course it was gona wake me" so much for it being on silent

"I’ve been good to you, it annoys me when you get upset over nothing, it starts heaps of fights with 'gf' that I text you but I tell her that it’s important that you have someone to talk to, I hate it when you play games" WTF? Me playing games? You’re the one with the gf and if I was your gf I wouldn't like the way you keep touching me..

That is along the lines of what was said, I can't promise word for word as I have deleted the texts but what I wrote is pretty close... the italics were my thoughts not part of the conversation...


After that I thought that it was probably better that we weren’t friends, I don't want to be the reason they fight, most of all I don't like it that he thinks I’m playing games... so since then I have stoped texting him and only text him back if he wants to talk to me..


Why are things always so messy?

Ahh.... My emotions are all over the shop once again thanks to Taken Guy...

So I had an accident the other day ridding someone’s horse, it is the worst fall I have had though didn't tell my parents. My hip hurt quite a bit and I was hobbling around, so I went to taken guys place just to catch up and so my parents wouldn't catch on that I’d had the fall...

I don't know what’s going on, is it possible for him to be more attractive every time I see him??

Anyway he went and found me some clothes apparently I was going swimming with him. So we just talked and swam till his parents come home then I had dinner with them and we watched TV till it was late and his parents had gone to bed...

So we were just lying on the floor in his lounge room talking and sort of watching TV, him trying not to poke me too much cos I was in pain and occasionally running his hand through my hair.

Then all of a sudden he gets up holds out his hand to help me up, I think ok must be home time for me... so I "hobble" out to get my shoes he walks close behind me always too close… Touching... He walks me out to my car; I opened the door the interior light comes on.

"Aw look at all the beautiful start and you recked it" he says and sits on the boot of my car...

Ok I think, so I close the door.

I was cold and start to shiver, I didn't bring a jumper so I scan the back seat of my car looking for something warm and the light goes out...

"Are you cold?" my teeth are chattering "come here" he says...

So he holds me to him and we look at the stars and talk some more bout the constellations and a few shooting stars we see... but we don't make any wishes, I can't think what to wish for... He touches me running his hands down my sides and over my tummy.... Then when its time for me to leave he hugs me about three times before I get in my car and tells me to text him when I get home....

1. I’m confused
2. We are just friends???
3. He has a girlfriend...
4. I don't know what this is...
5. Maybe it’s nothing…
6. HELP =]

So people I need advice, what do you think about all of this?
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